so, I've been thinking, I really want a sibling...I really do...some of you that have siblings might advice me otherwise, but it gets lonely, ya know? what got me started on this tangent is whenever Rachael Goldman came into our spanish class and asked to see "the youngest member of the Goldman clan"...so Andy went out into the hall and I was watching them and they stood, palm to palm, fingers interlocked, looking into each others eyes when they talked, like they really cared about each other, then they hugged and they seemed to have their own little 'language' or something that others just can't understand, and I really want that with someone....I mean, having friends are AWESOME, I mean, I really love all my friends, but like, I just want that connection that can't be broken by a fight....i want a blood relationship....I'm really only directly related to my parents through blood, but I mean, they're my parents and they are great, but still, its not the same as having a brother or sister. All through Jacks funeral, I noticed how much Jenny and Kristen hugged each other, gave looks to each other, connect with each other on a very sensual level, and I got to thinking about it (and it was also brought up by my mom) that they are lucky to have each other because, for example, if my parents died, who would I attach to? sure, my friends, but they wouldn't be feeling the same loss that I would be feeling...sure, Kathy and Gary would be loosing a sister, barb would be losing a brother, my grandparents would be losing a son, kenzie, whitney, jenny, and kristen would be losing an aunt and uncle, but no one else would be losing their parents....Jenny and Kristen both knew exactly what the other one felt like because they both lost a dad. When my dads mom died, him and my aunt knew how each other were feeling because they were both losing a mom. When my grandma dixie and grandpa benie died, kathy, gary, and my mom all knew how the others were feeling, because they all lost a mom or dad. but I hear all these ppl talking about how much they hate having a brother or sister, but, I don't think there is any relationship like siblings...your friends might now always be your friends, your spouse might not always be your spouse, but your sister will always be your sister, and your brother will always be your brother. I mean, granted, I don't have a sibling, which is why I'm writing this whole thing, so I'm obviously not speaking from experience, but just the way that I've seen siblings act, I really want that relationship...I dunno, maybe I'm crazy. but it was ironic, because Andy came back in the spanish room and said, "be lucky you don't have a sibling...all they do is take money from you"....