like i said in the previous entry i will explain the being of this diary. here it is: THE REASON OF THIS DIARY: i created this diary on the business day after i moved from what i thought would be the end of my moving life. obviously, i was wrong and i'm planning to move again but this time far away. im moving to the united states because my mom is having freedon crisis. i think, all her life she never did what she really wanted in order to make other people happy but she chose now as her time to "shine", sort of speech. i know this is selfish of my part but i wish she would've waited until i was done high school. i had all my future all planned out and now it turned into ashes. in few words, my future i now a mystery to me; unknown. what will i become? and on top of it she didn't even ask me how i felt about it. she took the descision by herself and i could either follow her or go live with my dad. so she left me in a dilema in order to pursue her dreams. i am scared to move but i dont want sympathy. i havent told my friends any of it and im not planning on telling them any time soon for the simple reason that i dont want to trouble them. therefore, i created this diary to in a way to stop me from any revelation or to break out on them. if i let it all out here i will be able to let it all out here so i dont have to elsewhere. so, i guess, this diary will start my little countdown until D DAY; the day that im moving to another country, the states...maybe. this is my situation, dont sympathize...i'll b just fine. :) dolefulutter.