Listening to: broken girl - she wants revenge
Feeling: pessimistic
Her feet on the dashboard and her eyes careening through the ever changing horizon. Her stare is not really focusing on anything for she's seen this scenery hundreds time. Her face is emotionless and the car is racing through the city lanes, stopping at the red lights and slowing down at the yellow like it always did. The only thing that ever changed on those many trips home was her thinking. Each trip came with something new that pertrubed her mind. Today, a hurricane of words and ideas flew around her mind making her go craaazy! This time her heart was involved, not for love but simply her pride which had been shattered earlier today...
Everything she did to reject what her friend had said about who she was or what she was trying to be. She wanted to cry...but kept everything inside and her face remained emotionless. Her mouth is shut and her ears picked up the faint sounds of the FM radio. She had heard this song a thousand times and it did nothing to her, no meaning at all. She was in a deep state of deep thinking. The driver knew nothing from looking at her and kept focus on the road, trying to avoid hitting anything and enjoying the music. She tried to assure herself that her friend didnt mean anything mean by what she said, it was just a playful comment, right?!
ou voulez-vous demenager?
And then the help you have given while still being hurt yourself drives you to only feel even more pain / hurt?? I just want to make sure I understand what you say.
I understand what you say about maybe the words in your friends comment actually being true of you.
I have a friend.. my best friend actually.. he called be deluded. Said I was the same as everyone else.. lol.. said I believed myself to be some sort of enigma and higher being as I would not admit to the fault of being socially inept!! lol
It's natural we question ourselves.. "yeah, maybe I am deluded. Maybe I have so much pride I can't see beyond the mistakes I make.. can't see the obvious". Truth is.. if you're making a mistake
Hope that all makes sense. If that comment is true.. you'll know it.. if not.. it will mean nothing to you. Just believe in yourself!