I travel alone. I started doing this about 4 years ago. At first, it was short trips and then it was other countries. Eventually it was just my preferred method of travel. I love the independence, but I hate the looks I get when I tell people.
"Oh! You're visiting a friend there?"
"No. I don't know anyone there and I'm not meeting anyone there. I am going alone."
That look.
Also, the loss for words. It makes me feel like I am not part of them and only an outsider would behave in my way. I know that it isn't strange, but it hurts not to belong.
When will that longing to belong end? I'm thinking of moving away, but I am terrified that it won't change anything. What can I do now about this? Is it all in my head, or is it simply a matter of changing my mind set? Can it really be that simple? If I don't feel like I belong, does that mean that I don't love myself or the people?
Germany was beautiful. People were very nice and helpful even if I couldn't speak German. I learned so much. I definitely want to explore more of the country one day, and a lot more of mine as well. I also want to fall in love. I want to start with a hobby.
Auf Wiedersehen!
There is a comic book by Will Eisner, which is called 'Invisible People' which i read in my 20s. It describes different kind of inconspicuous people: some of them just hide from the community, some of them just avoid and some stand there, watching it from the outside, finding no way inside. But it's so easy: just open the window or Glassdoor, walk in. Look around. Say hello to people and participate on something. For me in example it was gardening in a garden colony. Just come in contact with the garden neighbors (they were over 70). But every contact counts. You need s ahobby as you said. Well enough with that :-D
Hamburg is nice, i agree, i've been there some years ago. Berlin i never visited due to i'm not really into big cities, Munich is supposed to be very nice but if you are into openminded, friendly people you should try Cologne aswell. Cologne is nice for a city :-)And if you arrive there for 'Karneval' you're gonna come back for sure.
i think travelling alone is very brave, my respect for that. If you don't love yourself? I don't know, but i know that loving people is quite difficult if you can not love yourself. I hated people in general in my early 20s because i was disappointed of myself. Nice to hear, that you liked it here in .de, where've you been?
Good hobby might be: german lessons :-D
- be well
Ach und einen guten Rutsch in's neue Jahr.