"It's my favorite month of the year," I said to everyone. I've overlooked my thoughts in complete confusion...what did I really mean. Did I even mean anything by what I said? Yet, I say many things most of them beyond what my young mind can endure. I get involved and I want attention but the more I get, the more I get disapointed. Furthermore, it's in philosophy that he dwells for me but am I ready to show that side of myself to someone? I've hidden it for so long... I am dying to let my real person out for him to see but yet, everytime he's around my mind freezes; as if i had enough problems to get my thoughts across. Maybe I lost my way with words..or maybe I simply think too much and thus create a field of confusion. NOTHING makes sens to me anymore...and to others. I think I'm just scared of being figured out. Just the thought of this makes me shiver...and slighty angry.