i feel it seems. still further, it's not black or white but a whole spectrum of feelings imaginable in the universe. they build up in my heart then make their way to my mind to create a rainbow of hysteria. my body responses as my fingers waltz on the keyboard and pixels parade my thoughts on the screen and my mouth, picking false signals from my dysfunctional brain, articulates surprisingly hurtful and ignorant words to undeserving people. i must re conquer myself to gain control and keep everything inside my being. what i'll do is apparent, i'll be obliged to gather all the hues and make paint to design abstract masterpieces of hidden emotions and hang them on the walls of my subconscious.