just got home from school and i dont feel so great...physically im fine but emotionally i feel like shit..for a large number of reasons well..trying to avoid today...my weekend was great..i went to my brothers spelling bee on saturday than my grandmas and amandas..(..) ..but then on sunday i went shopping yay..i got pants..and 3 shirts yep..then i went back to my grandmas w/ my family cauz my uncle came home yep and today was stupid. because it was and the whole day i felt like shit because of stupid little things that i [always] let get to me and i just cant let it go but how can you just let something go if it's always on your mind? life is confusing..and i suck at it. and people around me REALLY arent making it any better.i should just let those people go because its pissing me off.but that brings me back to the point of letting go.. ive had to let go of more things in my life than humanly possible and i dont think i can do it any more..it all just keeps coming in my direction and it wont stop anyway..trying to be happy...today we went outside and played softball in gym and it was fun because i got home! wooooh..lol. i skipped soccer practice on friday..because of reasons? lol i didnt have a ride really..i dont know like anyone on my team which kinda sucks but my coach and my dad want me to play so ill just stick it out and play..besides im gunna have fun cauz its the sport i love so its not really gunna matter if i know anyone my birthday is coming up really soon :D i cant wait..i think my dads gunna get me a guitar yesss..because he told me to write it down so he doesnt forget-which is a sign. aaah the skate and surf fest is calling my naaammmeee i wanna go really bad..thatll brighten EVERYTHING up so yea theres the update...things arent go so well in my life right now some encouraging comments might help? saRah