If nothing lasts forever.. will you be my nothing? Just when I thought that it was over.. he came back. For me, the worst of the nightmares were over. When I heard a car drive past my house I no longer got up to look through the window.. When the phone rang I knew that it wasn't him. But today was not just like every other day. Today he was at my door. I had asked Jacob to stop talking to me.. it was too much for me to look at him and know that I love him and that I can't have him. For a while he listened to me. In fact, we made it over a week. He told me that he misses me.. and I wanted more than anything to ask him to stay. He has her now. He chose her. Not me. If I can accept that than whats stopping him?? I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away. "If only".. I say that a lot. If only you hadnt hurt me. If only I was happy. If only they cared. If only we were together. Another day.. always comes. No matter how much I pray that it wont. (this is from Jacob's xanga on Jan 3) sarah: ... what you said is what made me realize i had to change, i was afraid to tell you the truth cuz its new to me... after you said it tho, i wanted to say it back, why i didn't, i'll never know... but its true, you and me, nothing can really ever break us apart. It amazing how things change. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things that I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]