Do you ever find yourself reaching for something? You don't know exactly what is it.. but you know you need it, and that's all you need to know. Laying there in bed, you can feel the void, like your heart has traveled to your stomach. For some, it would be nice to feel anything in your stomach. I'm a model now and the tagline is essentially - get use to being hungry. They might as well ad that to the conract..it would be more fun to break it that way. My newest train of thought, or I dare say newest obession that I have to figure out for myself - is what makes people care. stay...leave. What motivations exist..that is out of their control. What do I do...that makes one stay and another leave? Can we affect their choice to care? Make the difference between love and lust? Hah and this is me thinking on uppers..imagine me on a bad day. Enough rambling for now..i'm sure I'll edit this later..