This is the last time I'm going to say this to you.. and then I'm going to do my best not to bring this up again. You are the only one I want. I just want to start over.. I'm sorry for the way I hurt you. I love you, Jacob. I love you SO much. We would last.. we'd make it. I know we would. ..do you honestly love her or are you learning to love her? Because I know that I'm learning to love him.. but I have always loved you. He will never make me as happy as you can.. or as you have. I never felt this way about anyone else.. and I've never said that to anyone else.. so if this isn't love then I don't know what is. And I.. oh God I don't know.. I'm afraid to leave. I'm afraid to leave you.. and everything.. and.. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.. This isn't fair of me. I just.. I don't want to spend the rest of my life thinking about you and dreaming about what might have been. But I've lost you, haven't I.. [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]