I'd rather be dead than make more mistakes. I am a hopelessly faithful and loyal person. I could never intentionally hurt someone that I love. That sounds great, right? Except.. what happens now? What happens now that I still love Jacob.. what happens now that I can only think about him.. what happens now that I want to move on SO bad.. but as soon as I think that I am his face appears in my mind. I know that he doesn't want me to move on. I can't do this to him. Tim almost kissed me. What should have been the perfect moment was shattered by the memory of Jacob. I can honestly say that I was starting to forget. I need to forget.. any ideas? Last night was fun. It really got my mind off things. Austin T, Matt, and I just did whatever and had a blast. I am the queen of poker!! They thought that it would be funny to make it strip poker.. they regreted that, heh. [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]