Take a photograph It'll be the last Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here I don't have a past I just have a chance I just need to vent for a while and get some things out. I'm a junior but i'm already praying for graduation. I can't do this anymore and i'm starting to feel pointless. Jacob kills me. He had the nerve to say that he wishes he never met me. He was shit before I came into his life and he knows it too. Everyone knows it. I am SO effing tired of hearing that i'm "the best thing that ever happened to him" because he is the worst thing that ever happened to me. Before him I was ideal innocent. I didn't drink, smoke, got too far, or anything that would be consider "wrong". I hardly even partied and I never missed church. Now I drink, smoke, and so many things in between.. I live for the partys.. and I almost never go to church. HE changed me. HE ruined me. I'll be at NYU soon enough. They already sent me a packet to plan my classes and I have not even applied yet. I get an average of 7 college letters or so a day.. and I promise that I will go on to do great things. I wanted him to be a part of that but I can't expect him to spend forever with me. This could be the first time in a long time that I've done something right. I'm going to walk away and this time its not up to you to say how far. [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]