She could feel tears against her cheeks now.. The memories refused to fade away. She knew that some day soon there would be dust in their place. They have to dry up some day.. She can't cry forever. It feels like she already has. She swears.. that some people make her want to take the knife out of her back.. just so she can slit her throat and stop the sound of their voices inside her head. Carly's party was today. I don't understand her. She is just.. Carly. There isn't another way to describe her. This morning she was my friend and I guess that somehow changed before her party. I had to leave early to go to Cory's and she knew it.. but when Dustin was leaving too I guess she got the wrong idea. She walked over to me. I thought she was going to give me a hug.. but instead she took the last water balloon from the fight, held it against my chest, and soaked me.. she knew that I had plans.. I can't believe her. Cory saved the day though! I don't know anyone who can cook a steak better than he can. Hmm.. *drools* Kaitie, Dustin, Jacob (not the same one), Cory, and I all made dinner. Everyone did their part and it was really really good. I made mac & cheese and baked potatoes! Then we played poker until we were too tired to care what was going on. hehe.. gotta love that. Despite my ex-best friend's psycho outburst. I'm actually happy to be alive. =) [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]