Somewhere between nowhere and goodbye.. I've become a fool. I'm a fool for thinking that you're thinking of me. Before I forget how to breathe.. I'll forget every breath we took together. I'm depressed again and I'm afraid to say to what extent. Part of me wants to tell my close friends.. but I know I can't. They would never be able to accept how my mind works. I know that my logic is tragically skewed, but that's something that i'm not willing to change. This is who I am.. whatever happens. The last time I got this low.. was ironically because of the same reason that I am right now. My old best friend from freshman year keeps fucking with things. I've lost so many friends trying to avoid her and somehow I still have not hurt enough to satisfy her. I just don't know what to do anymore. I hate her.. I know "strong words" but they're appropriate. If you only knew.. you'd hate her too. I know my friends do. She is the reason behind almost all of my tears in the past four years. I used to think it was Jacob.. but she hurt that too. She is the definition of insanity.. but i'll have to explain more later. Up until recently.. the summer hasn't been all bad. Here are some of the happier pics. fall out boy concert ashlee ashley heather me at ashley's bday The Academy Is.. at Trees in Deep Ellum =)