The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love fall in love with somebody else. I'm lost.. broken..everything is falling apart all over again. I don't know what to do anymore.It never works out. Is it even worth it..? I guess not. How could it ever be worth it.. when I'm not even worth it. I'd be lying if I said that I care more for Tim than I do for Jacob. Last night I confided in Mark. He is really good at giving advice, or so I've heard, and I trust him with my secrets. I told him how I honestly felt about things with Jacob and Tim. He told me that I have to tell Jacob that it's not over for me.. it'll never be over for me. I know that he's right. I hate it when he's right. Today at school Tim texted me: "Mark found out that I like you and told me I could do better. I said that if anyone could do better it was you.. not me". Maybe Mark just told me to talk to Jacob, who he is also friends with, so that Tim wouldn't want to be with me anymore. I guess he's not the friend I thought he was.. If all else fails.. he made me feel better, even if it was only for a while. Mark told me that on monday Christina (Jacob's gf) told Jacob that she doesn't want him to talk to me anymore. He defended me to the very end.. and basically said that my friendship means more. Jacob never told me about this and I'm not sure why.. but that doesn't change the fact that it happened. He was acting wierd last night.. I know something is wrong. [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]