Jealousy is a disease. Get well soon. I like Tim. There, I said it. Jacob can just deal with that. I think he knew that this would happen before I did.. as wierd as that sounds. He said that he will hate me if something happens with Tim. He said that he will hate me if I leave and go to NYU.. I would have stayed here in Texas for him. But just because he could have kept me here doesn't mean that he is the reason that I am leaving. Last night Tim and Ryan came over and "kidnapped" me to go camping at the fire pit with them and mark, sable, lacey, matt.. and the rest of the group. It was awesome because we have been to busy to have fun like that recently. After a lot of muddy hiking and balancing on trees to cross streams.. it was just wow.. (yeah.. I left Julie and Kaitie and my house but this was around 3 and they were tired) After everyone else was in the tent, Tim and I just sat by the fire and looked at the stars.. and I was happy. I am happy.. Finally.. :) Things might be hard at first but I know he's worth all of it. To Jacob: I hope you'll find what you need But can I have my heart back 'cause it's starting to bleed [ Background by www.nuthinbutnet.net ]