Sometimes.. goodbyes really are forever.. Rest in peace my dearest aunt and uncle. I pray that justice really was found today. Do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? You don't want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. And at the same time.. you don't know exactly what is wrong either. There isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. The only thing you want in the world is to be alone. People have stopped being comforting...and it seems as though they're just asking because they feel obligated to do so. At least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take 'i don't know' for an answer. You feel the way you do just BECAUSE. You hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.. Sometimes I need to run away just to see who will follow.. And that's when I figured out that tears couldn't make somebody who is dead alive again.