Even the popups on my computer know im lonely. They think it's the most hilarious thing to tease me about it. 'Catch yourself wondering you wish you had someone? TRY ONLINE DATING!' Damnit, no. Just let me be, please and thank you. Someone will show up eventually down the line. But for now I'm just going to deal with it. It's not always a bad thing being lonely, right? I mean atleast no one can hurt me and I can't hurt anyone. Safety. Oh what the hell am i saying. It's always a bad thing to be alone. It sucks. I'd rather be in love with a million risks, than alone avoiding pain. --- Although I lack a boy by my side, I still enjoyed this four day weekend. As long as I'm keeping myself busy, I don't feel upset or alone. So that's exactly what I did. I packed my days with unpredictable places and people. And a ton of movies (Constantine wins for the best). But I must say, my most favorite event of this entire weekend was playing pinball at the allies with Rawb and Stace. It really wasn't just pinball. It was oh so much more. Let me try to my best to explain the theme and then you'll understand what I mean... On planet Party Zone, a bunch of crazy characters (like the Comedian Skeleton, Vampire Moon, Whores in Astronaut Helmets, Mustached man) gathered for happy hour somewhere beyond Wisconsin? Then something about the ozone, and dancing crash dumbies. Eh, nevermind. I really can't even explain it. It was just that awesome. --- The apology was just weighing on my back for so long and constantly reminding me, 'You should hate yourself for the way you treated that boy.' And I really started to loathe myself. This weekend, I finally got myself to say that little 5 letter word. Sorry. He was really mature about it (something I should learn from him maybe). I feel alot better now. I'm not going to drive myself crazy over it anymore. I made a mistake, we all do. Mistakes really suck. But they don't have to suck that bad if you can realize that you've learned from them, which I did. So much. I don't want that to happen ever again. I'll handle things better next time. --- Bob Evans is, without a doubt, the coolest place to eat. I ordered the Farmer's Breakfast. It came in huge portions and really made me feel like a farmer. I was having so much, I had this whole story running through my head that after I finished my meal- I would go out and fead the chickens and pump some water out of the well. Stace caught me zoning out during dinner and said 'I can just see what's going through your head right now.' Ah. funny funny. --- I admire Atticus Finch. Atleast, so far in the book. Hopefully, he doesn't turn out to be some crazy twofaced phsyco.