When we recieve shots, they actually inject us with a little bit of the virus in order for us to build an immunity to it. I consider all of my demented past relationships a bunch of shots, leaving me immune to false love. I'm done with petty boys and their petty issues. I'm done with throwing myself out there for this crap. The only thing I'm not immune to is true love. I think it's a rare bug. Not everyone gets it. Only the lucky ones. Maybe i'll get it someday. But i'll wait forever, even if it never comes. And trust me, I will know when it comes. Atleast I think so. --- Another topic which I feel the need to address is the fact that I am still a virgin. I didn't think it was so strange, until i started to realize that I am truly one of the few around me. To be 18 and still a virgin these days is almost ludacris. Rather than this make me feel weird, it makes me feel awesome. I'm so proud that I haven't given into the pressure when guys have tried to pull their shit on me. I'm above all that. I can control my body. When teens have sex, its usually disgusting and sleezy to me. Sex should be about love but when I hear about teenage hookups, it depresses me. Teenage hookups just seem selfish and greedy and completley triggered by the fucked up hormones of the highschool era. Nothing is worse to me than hearing about them discussed so nonchalant. Bah. It makes me mad. Don't get me wrong. I'm waiting for love, and it is true that some teens who are having sex are truly in love with their partner. And, well, good for you. That's special, and as long as you realize this that's totally cool. Have as much sex as you want. The more I wait, the more special it will be I think. Seriously, how amazing would it be to say to someone 'i've waited just for you and only you because i truly do love you.' I feel that waiting will only leave me more time to find the person that I really do want to be saving myself for. Again, back to the true love thing. I want to wait for it, even if it never comes. --- Ha, all these words are probably torture to the male species.