Pah. I honestly feel ditched. I know know that Mike is really vury pissed at me, because I was complaining to him and everything. but then at the end, he said "You make me happy." I mean how the hell am I supposed to make him happy, well. I don't know. Fucking guys. He said, that if he could, he would move to edmonton for awhile and spend all the time with me that he could, but that I couldn't get attached because he could leave any day. I had a dream about him and Morgan and Shea and Tyler((?)) and I. It was weird, because he was obsessed with me, up until he and Morgan started playing cards. I don't remember the rest of it, but I know that it had a great signifigance. It just makes you wonder, maybe there was a sign left in my dream...hmm..you never know. I have decided that I am going to write in here, then print off the entries and mail them to dear deathstar. I lobe her lots. When I looked up symptoms for depression... I had all 10. Is that bad??