LAZY EYE THAT FALLS ON YOU 1. When You looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was behind you? a window filled with crosses crosses crosses, the snow likes to whisper that it is the sun's lover. dispite the truth of the affair between the trees and glass 2. Do you like someone? i cannot make up my mind, my feelings wont listen to me 3. What were you doing at midnight last night? learning how to breathe. i finally found out what i cannot do with myself. 4. Favorite planet, which you would live at, if you could? drops of jupiter 5. Who is the first person you ever kissed? kale. he wanted to marry me when i was six. 6. What is your favorite ring on your phone? my phone doesn't ring. it sobs. 7. What kinda underwear are you wearing? pink. 8. What do you think of yourself? im too impulsive, and i need to make up my mind, fold down my brain. IM WAITING FOR MY LIFE TO PICK UP WHERE IT LEFT OFF. THE CAMERAS ARE OFF THE CAMERAS ARE OFF, THE SET IS SLEEPING, THE ACTORS ARE CALM, HARDLY BREATHING. im waiting for you to come back, i want my ending. 9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing? feet. they are bare, craving sand. 10. Night light or pitch black? pitch black, i dont want to see who im laying next to. 11. What do you think about the (previous) person who took this? i miss her, the way her palms matched mine and her fingers laced through my own. 12. Why do we always press harder on the remote when we know the batteries are dying? its an attempt to make up for our own lives. we need stability, we're forceful, we're undeniable, hardly disarming and need need need an ending, we need control, and if its unable to attain through inanimate objects, we fucking suck. 13.What's a word that rhymes with mist? kissed. when will i be missed by your mouth. come back come back. 14. What did your last text message you received on your cell say? 'there must be a reason' well, curves. there isn't. 15. Where is the nearest Valero? It forgot to exist. 16. What's something that you say a lot? you heard me, i dont want you to think im crazy. i appreciate you i appreciate you i appreciate you, and sometimes that makes me want to kiss you. i think i told you that too. 17. Who told you they loved you last? I haven't been told i'm loved since September. and even then it was forced: "i havent told you that i love you in a long time. so, i love you" she didn't mean it. 18. Last furry thing you touched? my dogs head 19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past three Days? i dont do drugs. i smoke tobacco. 20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? 1/2/3/4. 21. Favorite age you have been so far? 16- it was my royal birthday and totally irreplaceable 22. Your worst enemy? i have forgotten everyone i used to know. 23. What is your current desktop picture? kandice, in that hollow with all the leaves falling all over her face like a blanket. 24. What was the last thing you said to someone? verbally: nothing. 25. How do you like your eggs? mushrooms and green and red peppers, shredded cheese, salt pepper, toast and some ketchup. 26. How much cash you spent last night? i bought a twix and some water at work, i also tried to make jc deep throat the twix bar, but that was too difficult, so i just blew in his ears instead making his eyes water. 27. What was the last song you listened to? sunday morning. 28. Tombstone, Urn, marker, wooden cross, or forgotten grave? Urn, my ashes wont stay there forever. if and when i die, they'll be distributed throughout the santa anas in california california california. 29. Spell your name without vowels: tylr, or tlr aka TRAILRE 30. What is the date two days after your birthday: August 18th, one day i wont forget. i lost my heart in a hallway, surrounded by people. her mouth pressed to my ears whispering whispering. your mouth was so cold. 31. How many pairs of jeans do you own: four 32. How many are designer: none. my soul is the designer artifact. 33. What color do you wear most: black or purple i suppose. 34. Least favorite color: yellow or nauseating neon orange 35. Last song heard on the radio: i dont listen to the radio 36. What's for dinner tonight: something shitty. popcorn since im seeing a movie. 37. Are you happy with your life right now: i dont remember the last time my life was continuing. its stagnant, and stale as breath in the morning. im waiting for it to start again, im waiting for you you you you. sweep my off my feet, remember how much you used to love me. im waiting for the climax, the ending. for the credits to roll. 38. Tell me a secret about one of your siblings: he fell in love with a boy who broke his heart, he still cant breathe, he hasnt been breathing or laughing since august. 39. Anyone ever said you resemble a celebrity: unfortunatly, if that was the case. id have a sexcapade. 40. Who did you last call on your phone: yesturday i returned jcs call. and from my house phone, karen. Do you own a.. 41. Ps2: yes 42. Xbox 360: no 43. Psp: No 44. Sidekick: no 45. Digital camera: 2 actually. 46. Where do you want to go to school after high school: I hope im living in california close to the coast, in a small apartment. im going to take photographs, trace the flight of imagination with my fingers and ill be so in love love love, that ill paint his face on the glass of a window, kaliedescope and broken eyes, sigh sigh sigh, ill live with the water too cold and ill be afraid of being swept away by the sea, ill study the city at night and the lights, the santa anas winds and the fires that will creep up a mile from where you stand. ill dance at night and sleep on the roof, reciting the moon and how it howls when you cry to it. im going to study love love love and i wont be without you. 47. Do you shop at stores like hollister, abercrombie & fitch?: who? 48. How do your make money: i work full time. i make friends, i make love love love. 49. Last thing you bought over fifty dollars: possibly a sweater awhile back 50. How's the weather: it trying to convince itself that the world is happy, trying to make us all smile. it should be grey, you fuckers. 51. When do you start summer break: I gave up my summers last september. 52. Are you missing someone right now: yes, in a spiteful kind of way. unless its the boy who has eyes that smile, i miss laughing with him, and the way i can look at him without blinking. 53. What chores do you have around the house: i sleep too long. 54. Finish this sentence. I wish I was with Someone: that resembles my insides. i want the thoughts to be the same, the experiences, the preferences the music taste. the hopelessness and the abilities to both be stunted. i want an undying love of movies and sleeping next to each other. i know he does and i know you do. i wish i was with someone who forgets how to cry but then i can remind them not only of that but if inexperience of FEAR FEAR FEAR for living, and finishing off all the sentances with people you love. i want them to be here, and be vital, an organ thats pulsating and who will never have worry about the final period at the end of our sentances. they'll always be commas because hell always be there. ill work. 55. One word to describe you? screaming. (myskinispeelingofffrommythroatdown) 56. Favorite pair of shoes: bare feet + sand = love love love. but other than that, converse. 57. Do you own big sunglasses: aviators that are broken 58. Do you find yourself attractive: im bald. how the hell can i be. apparently i need to have long hair to be pretty. fuck yall. 59. What would you rather be doing right now: chewing my thumb nails. sitting on a sofa with someone i am comfortable with, smoking and watching a movie. 60. What should you be doing right now: my fucking tennesse williams project. unfortunatley i am lazy. 61. Last im you received: from, i think her name was krista. she left when i didnt say anything. 62. Last message you received on nex: an explination from kandice 63. What are you going to do now: i dont know. im contemplating a lot 64. Are you thirsty: for you. i can tell you that im actually screaming for you. i hate the fact that you feel so bad about it, that when i get close you look away. not that you see me anyways. you have a juvinile heart.