Godfuckwankershitheadassandhole I feel so..used. Generally; like shit. I mean, how could I be as pathetic to cling onto it? I should've known that since 3 years has already passed. What WAS i waiting for anyways? Some stability away from what I couldn't provide myself? I guess so. But now I just feel like shit. I'm turning fucking 16, and how old is she? 20-something? Quite possibly engaged? What a catch. Once second best. Always second best. I feel like shit.