THIS IS MY RESOLVE: somewhat an ode to new years resolutions, to talking to your lover without hearing their voice; resonating in your brain reverberating inside the skull to having your fingers move up and down up up and down once twice and then before the third time, she came along and i am too young to having the guts to shave your head every time your heart breaks, to 5 am phone calls from girls who disappear, who think you're drowning and thinking and breathing in cigarettes and wine. HERES TO HAVING YOU KISS MY SHOULDER AND PROMISE YOU WONT HURT ME PROMISE YOULL STAY PROMISE YOULL STAY I AM TRYING TO FORGET YOU I AM REMEMBERING YOU YOU WERE SPARKLING. WE WERE SPARKING. and these silly things I like to dwell on. Here's to realizing that dreams arent really dreams until you wake up, that holding hands cant make you invinsible, that pizza will make you fat and that tattoos really never do fade. Here's to youre memory, the fact that all I have left of you is a picture in a locket that I pretend he bought for me the first night he kissed my eyes S H U T. And THEN THERES ME, im always changing, always leaving those parts of you and you and you behind, boy girl boy boy boy boy, the only girl I will ever love, body spread out on the hotel floor, time is stopping, we are stalling and we're kissing and mocking this and its just too too much. this will never exist again. and I know it. HERES TO MY PIERCINGS AND MY TATTOOS, MY SAD BALD HEAD, BLONDE BANGS AND MY CIGARETTES. HERES TO THE FLORESCENT LIGHTING I BREATH-IN 24 HOURS A DAY WITHOUT SLEEP. HERE IS TO ME WITH OUT YOU.