i greatly dislike the function of this kind of routine. i'm overly expecting myself to drop out and as of now, be kicked out of social because i have half a wise ass not to attend. Even if i am horribly sick and waking up with migranes due to a fever. Apathy is somewhat of a cold body, misery enjoys company etc etc. The only compaint I have against those is my cold body is sick and feverish, and my misery is self brought because as Kandice says, I am looking for reasons to hate myself. everything i dont say; she says, it's somewhat beautiful how we work that way. she's probably getting sick of my proding anyways. heh. You know what got me writing this piece of shit anyways? Finding out Kiefer has a girl friend. and just overall envy of Dana's life too. They all seem so happy, so full of life and fun and senseable because they gave up on teen angst a long time ago. what happens when everyone gradtuates, and i drop out because im left behind. i have no plans for myself.