I really wish I'd write stuff down in a book instead of using a keyboard, but i mean. this is much safer on account of having a crazy mother. But, when I look back on these entries.. they feel so vague and undecriptive and i'd prefer handwriting to font, but i cant bring myself to do it for some reason. plus; nothing has meaning for me anymore. no more nostalgia, no more worth in my memories. somethings changed too much, and i think it may be me.