i memorized it a long time ago, with the missing 'z' button on my keyboard I type as though it is going to save my life. trying to tone out the tune deaf verbals of the ugly humans on tv while feeling the veil pulsing in my brain with the black panties stained with red. you can see the lies embedded into my skin i am infected do not come near me because my lungs are lined with filth and you can feel the stress in my body you can feel the pressure on my heart you say you understand yet i know you cannot i mis-spell the words so that you will know i am breathing breathing for you without verbal transition and there are shaking sobs that turn the clocks on the wall. turn them back and in my dreams i know your there my face is pressed against your chest trying to get into your heart and i know you were there that night you cant just say you weren't you left with the light of day, leaving me at 6am to wonder who you were saying these things too. my swollen lips from kissing your lies too much, the poison tounge you have is interlaced with mine, you know? I can't even see anymore. you are everything i breathe i just want to scream why can't you leave me alone leave my heart to explode on it's own i know you dont want to be part of my boring words the millions of characters spilling out over the page i know you can't see anythign but what you want i am only beautiful to you because you cannot see me past the white veil shading your eyes you cannot see the hideous being before you with the crooked smile and the dark closing eyes you want to talk but i suffocate you can you tell me that i am gone?? You know i am everywhere you go. i lace your drinkw ith posion and you can't let it go you want to die with me in your system. i am afraid i will kill you. with the lace and the scars and the blood and the lies and the paintings on your body. you know i will never leave you.