wow, that snowball was fun! i danced with brandi (shes HOT) and jon and jeff and craig and alex(they are all pretty good dancers) and i also danced with ashely and caitlin. o yea, and i went to caitlins house and i took a shower, changed, and we left at 6:40ish and picked up mike (ex) and then we went to the dance, i guess that i looked SO good that even my old science teacher complimented me, and all my friends were like...DAMN haha. but im glad they all said i looked mad good bc it helped my self cofidence, and i had a TON of fun. so i feel very pretty today and all weekend..lol, which is VERY different for me.. anyways, i got baq 2 her house at about....11ish, i called my mom, and then i went to sleep. i went home at 11 in the morning and had a boring ass weekend. i havent heard from mike o in a while, and brandi didnt call...:( o well, i prolly annoyed her enuff at the dance, so wuteva. and i havent gotten a letter from chris yet...:( but hey, mail takes a while. o yea, and i still havent gotten a letter from bob and carrie yet either. well since im deleting everything off of my xanga, im adding all my xanga entries 2 this, so yea, if anyone is interested in reading my pathetic saddness, have fun... okay, so nvm, it puts them all at the begining, this sux MAJOR ass...o well love u as i love death~ ~kimmi~ ps-o yea, and sarah, who i was told hates me, danced with me 2...AWESOME!!!- pss~and yea, friday, i might not be in school, bc its the 5 aniversary of my grandfathers death, so im thinking, if my mom dont have work, than maybe ill go out and donate blood. i tried last year, but u have to be 17. so since im 17, im gonna see if i can do it this year. but yea, my grandfather in '99, was diagnosed with lung cancer, and he had a rare kind or it was to fast, or something, but they couldn't do anything for him. so he went home, and my mom was taking care of him. then, feb 4th, he died, "in his sleep" my mom told us. but last year, around christmas, well actually is was 2003 when i found this out, but i found out that he had shot himself...twice....and my mom had walked in on him after the second time, he said he was gonna go 2 the bathroom, so he was all over the shower.....damn it, im fucking dwelling on it...now i feel like shit...and my mom wasnt even the one that told us (me and my broz)....it was my sister!!!!! she was 3 and she was always telling me (rite B4 i found out) "kimmi, y is there blood in the bathroom?""do u see the blood, its right here, on my face" i cant fucking take it....so yea, thats y this friday sux brandi, now im crying, hope no one notices....