Well yesterday was all arts day. It was SO much fun. I got to hang with Sarah the WHOLE time!!!! I love her SO much! I really do like her, like I dunno if I wanna tell her but Jade is going to talk to her about it..err...I hope she likes me back, but prolly not. Oh well, I wouldn't like me. And me and Brandi aren't friends. Because I like Sarah, she is yelling at me...well she wrote a note to me...err, now my fucking had hurts bc I punched a locker, it sux...err...WTF?!?!?!?! I am NOT going to hurt her!! Look I fucking care about you Brandi. I don't care if you see it or not. I don't care if you don't believe me, you NEVER HAVE!!! I won't do ANYTHING with Srah, okay?! Damn it! & How the fuck did I hurt other people like I did to you? Is there a bunch of people out there saying how much they hate me or something? Bc that would suck but they should tell me if they fuckin do! If anyone (other than Brandi, Barry, and Paige) has an effin problem with me, FUCKIN TELL ME!!!! And yesterday I was suppose 2 have Andy Sousa drive me to pick up Andy O and go to his house and hang. And Taryn (the other grl I like) was suppose 2 be there...ERRR....whatever, my fuckin feelings and plans and emotions don't mean shyt to some people, I don't fucking care.... Okay so last night I found out that my mom put a restraining order on Joel, So I cried SO fuckin much, I am seriously losing it. I don't know what to do, I still am not thinking straight, it sux! I don't know how we are going to pay for have the shyt we have. It really sux! And I am not writting this bc I am a ptiy whore, I just want my friends (mainly Jeff) to know what is goin up(or down-lol) in my lyfe since I don't see him. and I couldn't even fucking hug him goodbye!!! How come I have a good day and then something bad has to happen?!?! what the fuck ever, I fuckin can't even think straight right now... oh yeah, and in 9 days, it will be my moms 6 month anniversery of her last drink, should I do something like buy her something? Please help me...