hey, im sorry for sounding so messed up and depressed....i havently really been myself recently. I love you all, all of my friends are so awesome. and for those who left a comment, thanx, it deff helped. all of the people out there that are helping..being nice...you make my world go around...you really don't know how good it makes me feel to know that perfect strangers are willing to help me....thank you SO much. sorry i havent written in a while, sometimes...lately, it has been feeling likew a chore, ill still write but prolly not as much. today was rather boring, i cleaned my house and watched tv. then when i went online, chris had the balls to talk 2 me, i think i actually hate him. so now there is one person i hate and 2 ppl i almost hate. o well. im messed up, i deserve wutever pain i get. okay, im not going to get depressive...lol..so who is everyone out there?!?! amanda, grl, i wish i could meet you so i could give you the biggest damn hug ever. you shouldnt do that to urself.... brandi, sorry for kinda like...spacin out lately..you know i love you...at least...i hope you do...o yea, and I'm sorry that I dont' really write baq to the notes, lol, I'm so bad Jeff...babe, I'm sorry...I wish I could give you a hug. you rock my world, you have made me laugh when I wanted to cry...you made me happy when I was down and wanting to cut....you rock my world. everyone else...yea..i love you 2....cya