Hey, Right now Carrie is rubbing my back...okay, she stopped, lol. Anyways, today was good. I went to North Hampton and I was looking at yarn for an hour and a half with Carrie and Roman. It was interesting for a bit, but then I got bored, lol. But there was tons of pretty fabric and I was with people I love so I trully didn't mind. I had macaroni and cheese for lunch, thought yall should know that! YES! I ROCK! I can't believe someone actually read the qhole thing thrue, my last entry, lol. Two people actually did! I feel special! lol, but I figured Jeff would. Oh hey, I notice that everyone is using their LJ names instead of their real names, I am sorry if I offended anyone. If yall want, I will change mine...just comment if you want your LJ name or if you don't mind your real name being up. Anyways.. Everyday, I wait, I wait for it to arrive, I await in the shadows of nervousness, I await, not knowing what is going to happen, I await in pain. So tonight we are leaving Ware and going to NY. I can't wait. I will be happy for a change. Just being around Bob and Carrie is uplifting. We three just fit together. I love it! Last night I didn't sleep again. I went to bed at 2 and was still really not that tired. But by three I was out. Roman woke me up at 8:30 by pulling my hair and lips, lmao. I have also been having rather weird/interesting/odd dreams when I actually do get to sleep. But that is okay, I love the unrealistic ways of my dreams, they make me smile...most of them, cept my suicidal ones, they are...satisfying (sp?) in other ways... I have to call Cai sometime to try to hang out and shit. Bob, Carrie, Roman (their son by the way), and I are going camping and stuff and they are going to Salem as one of their stops to camp (did I mention how much I HATE camping?). And I need my phone back and I would love to see him. So yeah, got his number today, probably gonna call him sometime this weekend. Maybe Monday, if I ever remember to. Even though I am happy bc I am out of my house and with Bob and Carrie, I feel as though I am dieing on the inside, something is wrong, saomething is possibly missing. From what, I don't know, what is it, no clue. I really don't know what is wrong with me. I mean I should be MEGA happy bc I am out of my house for the WHOLE effin summer but..eerrrmmm....AAARRGGHH! WTF! What is wrong with me, why do I ALWAYS feel depressed (and hungry-lol). Okay, I am going to try to be happy. I wasn't suppose to make this long...errr. See ya! -kimmi -miki -kimba