y do i keep reading it?? its driving me insane, y y y?? i wish brandi knew how sorry i am, i mean if paige says all of this, brandi must have said it..ya know..n it hurts, lately she had been....different towards me..i deserve it tho....im a horible person..i told her this was gonna fucking end..n she was going to end up hating me...but whatever..i dont want it 2 end..but...THIS HURTS SO MUCH!!! i hate loosing friends, and i had told her stuff i havent told other ppl....i hate making friends, i hate trusting ppl, i hate ME!! talking 2 ppl bout it makes me wanna cry...this whole thing is killing me...even thinking bout andy doesn't help rite now, he aint in school or online..he is out killing/hunting..whatever..with jeffie p...i hope this works out with me and him.. okay, everytime i see her, she either looks away or whatever...im guess she dont want anything to do with me..so yea..i guess I should just give up...she doesntwant anything 2 do with me so yea...whatever okay, well andy might be comming over!! and andy s might be 2..i dunno..but my mom dont want me 2 go 2 andy s's house bc she has never met andy o and she dont remember meeting andy s bc that was way baq when..lol..9th grade...lmao!