I can't believe I still care about her. I saw her at my lunch yesterday and guess what the fuck I did? Yupp, I started to fucking cry...yet again, you know how many fuckin tears I have given away bc of her. And she says I never fuckin stop when she is cry but has she, out of all the fucking times I cried bc of her has she ever fucking stopped for me? NO! Why do I still give a shit, what is SO wrong with me?!?! Okay, AManda [organicpeace] wants a happy entry, so I am gonna try...just for you because I love you! Well today is May 20th, Amanda (my sister's ) 5th birthday! she is SO happy to!!! Oh, and Dusten is coming over this weekend so we can hang out bc he isn't going to Rites this year :(!!! This is horrible! And I am going to Rites next week. I am leaving Tuesday and comming back on the 31st. increments spike their blood where a mass of mud cucumbers cut to fit their eyes and so no one would know how tired they've grown of talking and telling their lies