hmmm.... I finally got my stuff out of Brandi's locker. I have to go to Mr. Sweet and then a hall monitor to get it out of her locker but I got it. Now she is all.."gimme my stuff SOON" maybe I should ingore her like she did to me... I had a dream like that last night..that she came up 2 me and asked for her stuff back now that I got mine and I started to walk away but turned around and started to tell her what has been on my mind and then I started to cry..hmm, oh well... I don't know why this shit still hurts, but it just does, whenever I see her, hear her or even hear her name..I start to cry... I am SO fucked up :/ Cai and I are talking everyday. It is fun, he is SO sweet, he makes me feel like a somebody, like I have a reason to be alive. Which I don't normally believe there is.... I don't like life..I don't normally like living.. But he makes me seem I have a place...a reason.. Okay, whatever, wow, that was odd, lol....AnYwAyS... lol.. Okay, So yeah, today I went back to sleep after I turned off my alarm clock so my mom drove me to school and I got here at about 8ish, lol. I told you I am lazy... So yeah, I didn't have time for a shower, I am wearing hot topic shorts and..yeah...they're form Alex, lol. I love him! He has saved me a ton of times!!! Well I have nothing else to say really...ssooo...see yall later