the past 2 days have been like summer. which could definitely not be considered a bad thing. i love summer. i loved summer. yesterday diana came to school in a yellow shirt and the way she smelled and the fact that the sun was shining reminded me of summer. i felt good, i felt really relaxed and laid back. and i felt like i was having fun, i havent felt this exact way since summer. its like i had nothing to worry about, nothing hovering over me, no problems, and tons of friends to hang out with and just chill and do nothing. it is a wonderful feeling, it really is. everyone smells like summer everywhere. all of my friends. i think it has something to do with the heat. and at lunch today, i had so much fun, like i wasnt at school, like i was in a park somewhere. it also felt like the last few days of school, when everyone came together. it was amazing, it really was. the strawberry festival was the beginning of that. maybe this is the start of something, maybe the ends of my years will always be significantly better then the beginnings. so today fonzie is leaving our school, its his last day, now he is going to continuation school.. so we had a farewell pizza party for him. we went to my house and had a rave upstairs and a playing guitar eating pizza pixies area downstairs, and we all laid on eachother on the steps for a while, and it was wonderful. it was like the end of last year and the summer. it was just what i've been so sad because i miss it so much about. today made me feel good. really good. i danced. zach and fonzie are fun to be around. i guess i wont see them as much anymore, but they will visit. hopefully this is the beginning of a good period of time for me. i hope so, i truly truly need it. -kitty