commander pixey katie butt jones kitty rosa chewy sock the 3rd. full name to longest extent. there may be more. i might have to edit that. its hard to think of them all. all i reply to, all are my nicknames. my real name is katherine. katherine anne. i did not give myself these names, people granted me them. i shortened it to commander pixey katie rosa sock the 3rd. , commander pixey if you want to make it easy, pixey if you want to make it easier. pixey. i have an orthodontist appointment tomorrow at 6. i seriously dont mind getting up. i just dont want to be in pain. and the details are too hard to explain but something kind of fell and now i am going to have to go through it. but after wards i will get coffee and donuts with my mom and it will be one of the only times of the month we actually can get along and everything will seem nice. i wonder if we will still get coffee, it will be warm out. i cut my shirt today. i cut the neckline down low. and cut the sleeves off. on the sides cierra took it in a bit by doing this braiding thing. it looks kind of cool. its nice in this weather. im summer, when julia looks at me she sees summer. yesterday was a bad day. ian broke up with me. i am pathetic, i am a pathetic little girl. what i did was completely exactly what i never wanted to become, i am truly dependent on him, him caring about me, him loving me. the thought of him not being around to do that is completely horrible. i followed him, i made him talk to me. i did anything to get his attention. i am pathetic. this is not what i want to be. but i cant help but feel like it wouldnt happen. he doesnt want to break up with me. some things are just not working out. we arent broken up as of now. this is our last try, last try to fix things fora while. i know it can be done, i know things can go back to how they were but never really were. i dont want to be in this position anymore. and i know its okay. talking is just to hear yourself talk. writing is just to see yourself write. its all about impressing yourself with yourself. but listen, thats okay, it really is. i have alot to say about myself, alot that i like, alot that im proud of, and i do it everyday. being self-absorbed is what we're made of. accept it. love it. alive and kickin, commander pixey