every day is so happy and ends in unhappyness and then gets happy again. why cant it just be happy forever... or at least just for one whole day. i dont know if my mom is going out of town. im afraid to ask. she will probably just say she doesnt think she will and i dont want my hopes destroyed because nancy will probably talk her into it. i hope she leaves. my head hurts like a motherfucker. and i have nothing that great to write today.