its like this..i am not very fond of waiting to write out thoughts until the end of the day on a computer. and typing, somehow i feel like actually writing out something is more helpful and productive then just typing it. i feel like its keeping me in, closing myself and my posibilities in some way. i am resorting to my paper journal given to me by my precious donut more then anything else. all i really need right now is to have fun and have some weird new intellectual conversation with some one. i've been learning new things about myself. things i like and dont like, mostly. its interesting. it turns out im kind of interesting. i share alot of interests with my sister, i wonder if she had some sort of subliminal influence on me. i mean i know she did, my morals are shaped because of my family. but..theres simple things, that i agree with her and find funny on..it's interesting to find myself doing things that remind me of her. i dont mean to, it just happens. anyway, this might be a break. it might not. we'll see how it plays out. i just dont want anyone to be eagerly anticipating my next entry..because you know you all do.. ah yes. -gir