there are some people i cant live without as of now. but maybe, if i leave, i start a new life. and stop associating with anybody in those ranks. i can get over it. maybe thats the only way. and just for the record, there are some things i do that i feel bad for. there are some things i do that i dont. this one i dont. i dont know what to do about that. i am not one to lie, ian told me to bullshit it and say im sorry. but i dont feel sorry. i dont get what i did wrong, maybe you could explain it to me. since your the one that accused me. and i am sorry that i hurt your feelings. and i am sorry that you seem to think im not worth it. maybe im not. maybe you're right. you are right. but if you're going to do this to me. May as well attempt to explain what its all about. I am still in ignorence.