i know you don't give a shit,so don't pretend that you do. because you really just want to show off to people so that they think your a nice person,even though everybody else does the same thing. and you know what? im unbelievably sick of it, but i guess that when your so used to it,you become immune to the whole ordeal. I just hate it when people slowly kill themselves not involving me. and i wish they would stop,because i dont want them to end up like me, but what can you do about it? and then when you really think about it,theyre just the same as you. and those times you look into peoples eyes and see the misery. that utter uncomprehensable misery. it reminds me of the seconds i wake up and go to sleep. i dont know why it doesnt go away. but now i accept that i'm like that. i guess i'll just bury my head in the sand for now and wait until its over.