well it seems as if my world is spinning around at a rate i cant keep up with... i dont even know what it is...but everything goes by so fast,and i try and try but i just dont have the energy to keep up with it... maybe because i stopped smoking? i dont know but its almost as if im not even alive and im watching outside of a glass room. i swear. maybe im going insane i dont know but nothing seems to make me happy at the moment. even the people i know love me, even my fucking MUSIC.