shits weird in life... it almost seems like a repetitive process-your born, go to school,than college,get a job and get married & have kids. theres a lot in between that too..but if you dont choose something you love with an intense passion, life is either mediocre or as boring as you make it. especially when you dont like your career/job.... and your marriage isn't working out. But it goes the opposite way too...you love somebody and they dont love you as much as you love them. even in marriage that applies.. being hurt by somebody and discovering that you love that person more than they love you is so painful i dont even know how to describe it.. life almost seems like it wont go on but it does at the same time. it goes on,but if you truly are IN LOVE with somebody sometimes you never get out of it. you will never love someone like how you loved that one person. it goes on,but if you truly LOVE somebody it takes a long ass time to get over that person.. &if you care about that person, feelings go away as fast as you want them to,but it doesnt compare to being in love. theres 3 stages. 1.caring about somebody. 2.loving somebody. 3.being IN love with somebody. & i am in love. and it really fucking sucks,because im so pissed off at my boyfriend,but at the same time im in fear of him being gone and me missing him. i almost feel weak to think about him not being there,even as a friend,and i know that if he was gone completely i would never love anybody like i love him. i would be a brick wall.