damn its been so long i dont even know what to write really.... I feel like i have so much to say and so many thoughts running through my head but I can't find the words to describe anything that scatters through my brain.. actually at the moment...i think maybe im confused because im not sure if those anti-deppressants just make everything fast and squiggly or im just immune to the feeling and i dont even notice it anymore. i mean..sometimes everything goes by really fast and then all of a sudden i feel so lethargic like all the energy has been sucked out of me... and lately ive been doubling my dose and it still doesnt hit me like i used to... time for more :)