no one has a choice in being a living and walking disease. its really sad. if you are,then you are.if you aren't then just pray that you won't become one. especially when you are just being your plain old self. maybe you just want to act all peppy so people don't know whats really going on in your mind. makes sense to me. maybe thats why there are so many annoying people out there. now i understand. but i don't really. wow im pretty fucked in the head. people think that im the biggest druggie in the entire world,and that i don't remember a thing. someone even told me to go to rehab. actually 12341234 people did. no joke. they really think i am that stupid,but what they don't know is that i purposely block my thoughts out whenever i have the chance. if only they knew. because i myself don't know whats going on in my own mind. fuck you god. if you even exist.