it still bothers me. this nick and hilary thing. because they still talk. and now she's falling inlove with him or something or another. and i'm doing everything i can to save nick and i. but he isn't. but whatever. i don't expect guys to try much at anything. i've gone so far to satisfy nick that i've stopped talking to a bestfriend. which isn't going any further. the next time keith comes over, instead of telling him to fuck off like i've been doing all yesterday and today, i'm going to let him in. i really wish nick would prove his words. actions are far more important. and he always makes it to the point of saying that i don't want him talking to anyone. when it's only hilary. he sits there and tells me that he could tell her to fuck off and not care. because he doesn't care about her. or like her, as a person. yet he sits there and talks to her. which makes her like him more. and i wish he wouldn't talk to her. and tell her to fuck off like he says he can do without any problem. i just wish he'd prove his words. so i could stop worrying.