do i ever update at night? heartbreak isn't fun. i think that if i were to make it through this, i'd become a stronger person. i'm not over any of it, and i won't be any time soon. at all. but if i do get over it, you better fucking believe i'll be brand new and so strong i could kick your fucking ass with my pinky. having that said;; i feel like making a new livejournal and xanga, and just writing in all three of these, and having a myspace, and vampirefreaks, and everything. i like being involved in those things, even if they bring drama. i like writing, and being creative, and making layouts, and being able to be myself without worrying. tomorrow keith and i are buying pot. and smoking it early early monday morning. note to self: bring curve. school starts in two fucking days. i'm nervous. but a bestfriend [cody] from last year is on my team. we don't have any of the same classes, and that's fine. we have choir, lunch, and passing periods together. maybe there will be new kids, and i'll make new friends. i'm not worried about making new friends, or being accepted. i'm worried about meeting them. if they don't like me, that's fine. still. the pot will calm me down, and make me open up. meeting new teachers//scary. that's all.