i'm taking too much speed and smoking too much pot and chewing too many pills and drinking too much alcohol. i have an exbestfriend who only cares about fitting in and being scene because she's too fucking stupid to see that she's an amazing person when she's herself. because of alex, her 'bestfriend', she's a fucking poser. a goddamned fucking poser. that's all she is. that's all she ever will be. and i hope she fucking learns. and gets hurt so fucking bad. i'm so fucking stupid. i hope so many people fucking... go away. just, disappear. or fucking die. bryan, chloe, kirby, josh, nick, hilary, mitch, chris, angie, megan, heather, miriah, shireley. i don't believe in love. bryan's a fucking waste. he's a fucking dickhead and i hate fucking saying that but i hope he fucking dies. i need to stop taking these drugs. what in the fuck did i do to deserve this? godfuckingdamnit. any money i get, fuck my camera, it's going to the donations for katrina. i can't even cry or take pictures. brandon's fucking leaving me. keith's fucking leaving. bryan fucking left. what in the fuck. i hope kirby gets me. i hope he fucking does what he wants. and i hope he fucking puts that knife into my body like he was going to that night i snuck out to see him just to get lied to and molested. you know what? ihatemyself.