update fucking update. yes. shit has changed. yes, i have changed. not in a bad way. not in a good way. not in a HUGE way. just.. changed. i guess you could say i don't care much. well, i've been that way for a while. but seriously, i don't care what people have to say, or about stupid shit. warped tour was wednesday. it was hectic. i wrote about it when i got home. so here: last night i couldn't fucking sleep. literally. i went to sleep around five thirty and woke up at seven. it's my first warped tour, what do you expect? mikey called around eight thirty and said him and melisa would give me a ride there and back since they had won free tickets. danielle's mom said that she couldn't go. sheridan got online at like, nine. so i IMed him, and told him to go to warped tour. he said he didn't have a ticket or any money. i told him i'd take him, and he flipped out. i made the kids day. melisa and mikey came and got me. we went to melisa's, then to walgreens to pick up sheridan. it took us forever to get to verizon. but we did, before the show started. i saw a lot, like.. a shitload of kids i know. robbie included. he hungout with us. no good bands played forever. we found kat and kayla, hungout with them, and then lost them. we saw a few minutes of thrice. and saw like, thirty seconds of my chemical romance [sheridan and i literally hate them.]. we watched some skaters, and outa nowhere, taylor attacks me with a huge hug. she was with alex, so i got to meet alex. she looks nothing like i thought. i don't remember the order of bands, at all. i don't even remember all the bands i saw. i saw like fucking ten seconds of matchbook romance, but jordan needed to find taylor, and she was watching motion city soundtrack. so i missed matchbook. atreyu was the first big band i remember. i hate moshing. taylor's never been to a real concert. and it's my first warped tour. so guess what. i moshed. i moshed every second i could. so did taylor. i was proud of her. but her first band to mosh to was mcr. haha. for atreyu, due to moshes, i was pushed upfront. which was the best thing that could happen. and it's like, over 90 degrees outside. i'm wearing black, and don't have shit to put my hair up with. i make it through like, four songs, and had to deal with crowd surfers. i suck with heat, and a crowd surfer kicked me in the head, and i blacked out. so i left that scene. unfortunately. they had two songs left, so whatever. i was out in the side then, and then sheridan found me. we watched them play 'you give love a bad name' and 'lip gloss and black' and then left. atreyu was afuckingmazing. literally. taylor found us, and we were sick as shit. i ended up puking. we got something to drink. sat down. offspring played, but i couldn't walk to see them. so we listened to them instead. then we watched skindred. they're amusing as shit. very good though. we watched funeral for a friend. sheridan and i sat down considering he doesn't listen to them and i saw and met them last year. taylor and robbie went into the pit. funeral for a friend wasn't as good as they were last year. but i got down there for one song. we lost robbie. and i almost punched this kid in the head because i thought he was robbie. yeah, good thing i didn't. we never found robbie though. billy idol played, too. we watched him do white wedding. i saw him in 99. so i didn't care much. senses fail played and did stephen. taylor and i flipped. we doubted they would do that song, but it was the first song they did. they sucked, and i didn't find the boy at the chevelle concert. and i don't care about that anymore. senses fail wasn't even that good. so we left during them. saw one song by the spill canvas. the last band we saw was transplants. it fucking slipped my mind that travis barker was the drummer. taylor and i cried. yeah, no shit. we're such fucking teenagers. we got upfront. sheridan crowd surfed. taylor moshed. and i took pictures. they were realllllly fun. melisa and mikey wanted to leave, so we fucking missed avenged sevenfold. the main reason i wanted to go. yeah, it sucked, but i lived. i'm sunburnt as shit. and pretty fucking sick. when i got home, i was locked out for almost two hours. keith, derrick, and i hungout until my mom got home. and yeah. that's warped tour. my first, and definitely not my last. ps;; i kind of felt like getting in a car crash today. mhm. other news;; sharon and sheridan called me up friday and wanted me to come over. so i got my mom to take me to sharon's. it was like a sleep over. we watched tv and movies, played video games, went to krogers and did stupid shit, and talked. it was fun. and i like having new friends. sharon fell asleep. sheridan and i stayed up until ten thirty. we kissed. and i dunno. it's weird because he has a girlfriend. anyway. we slept for two hours. it was pretty nice falling asleep with someone's arm around me. then we went to see mr. & mrs. smith. very very good. and cute. made me wanna kick someone's ass. and drive. fast. and shoot people. when we got back to sharon's, sheridan left, and i stayed around for a bit until my tooth started being gay. and i got really tired. so my mom picked me up. got home, ate, took medicine, talked to taylor and sheridan, and crashed. had nightmares and dreams about having a good house. woke up around three, got online, ate, and have been talking to sheridan since. i do like him. he makes me feel kindof like a little kid. because he's immature. but his eyes are pretty pretty pretty blue. and his hair is black. and he has a gap in his front teeth. he reminds me of me. that's bad, right? i dunno. he still goes out with elle. i keep thinking about that. and i keep thinking about bryan. because he's my bestbestbestfriend, and he's drunk and high, and i'm worried about him. i hope he gets shit figured out. eventually. tonight my mom and i are going to watch movies and eat a lot of candy and popcorn. sheridan just told me he wants a relationship with me some time. i'm going to go. if someone comments on here, and is being a dick, i'll delete the comment. this site is for me. it's for me and whoever wants to read it. but i put everything i feel in here, regardless of what anyone thinks. if you don't like my site, don't read it. i could care less. take care.