so the kid i was talking about that i'm starting to like just called me and asked me on a date. i said no, because i couldn't make it. so he asked if he could stay the night this friday. and i said yes. i'm kinda afraid of what's going to happen with this all. if i start liking him really, and he leads me on. and i get hurt. or if this all goes good, and i get over bryan, and i actually have a good boyfriend. i'm really scared. ps// next month is my birthday. i don't expect anything from any of my friends. but my mother and sister are putting their money together to get that camera i've been dying for. i'm super happy about that. plus, i'm getting my tongue pierced. i hope everything starts looking up. fall and winter make me really depressed. and then i'll have super happy moments. i'm not sure what's up with that. last winter was wasted. this winter will not be.