I'm afraid of a relationship. It went too far and I got scared and now I see things in you that I don't like. Maybe I get to know people too fast, maybe my mind is just messing with me. Jo did say that I would have a lot of disappointments. I think she knew this was one of them. I'm lost between two boys, and why? I thought I fell in love with one and now I realize that he's not that great, he's not that chill, and this other boy is way more fun. I'm just crushing on the second guy. But today it's big. Hopefully I'll mellow out soon. I just don't know what to do, how to feel. I'm so tired of being dissapointed by people. Will I ever find someone I like for more than 2 weeks? You're life is tangled right now.