...It doesn't matter how hard I try...

Feeling: upbeat
We were finally back in school today from Spring Break. I suppose it was awesome to see many of my true friends again. It's actually hard to see the ones I really like outside of school. They're all too busy with jobs, family/religious obligations, or just so anti-social that they'd just perfer to stay behind a monitor 24/7. I can't blame them, though. Honestly. We each have our own lives, and as the school year comes closer and closer to an end, having a chance to hang out is slim. The only thing I can do is nod my head and smile. Although, it is nice to finally starting seeing some of those friends actually smiling. It must be the time of season, I guess. From crushes to two actual weddings, everyone is bound to have some happiness in their lives these days. I'm so happy for them. They all have, or are starting to get, what their hearts desire, and that is the greatest feeling on earth. To all of you out there, reading this or not, I wish you the best of luck, my friends. I actually found myself wandering the school halls during 5th period. It was weird. I got a pass to go use the restroom, which was right next to Mrs. Sutton's room, and I looked down and began walking. Next thing I knew I was leaning up against my locker upstairs, just thinking. I guess my mind just wanted to go for a walk. I usually have a well time keeping myself composed during class times. It usually isn't until mid-6th and 7th periods that the weight of the day start on my shoulders and I just want to go home and sleep. Which, oddly enough, is something I did for the first time ever in 12 years of school. I came home, tossed my backpack on the chair and laid down. Next thing I know, I'm looking at the clock and it's saying 6:30 PM. Now I'm on line and no one's around. Lol...story of my life. Now if it were only raining, the day could be complete. *sigh* Anyways...Paula actually liked one of my stupid ideas. That sort of schocked me. Then I had to ruin it and put the slogan I Love ~BIG~ Swords! on one of the shirts of a female character, who happens to love a guy that carries around a big sword. Anyways, her and Jess found it too perverted, or least too pervertedly implied, for the project. Oh well...maybe I can sneak it passed them from time to time. Then again...*thinks of the glares*...maybe I won't. Anyways, I'm not feeling like repoting on anything else this afternoon. I think I'm just going to watch some sappy anime and surf the net. I do know that at midnight, I'm going to Wal-Mart to pick up the newest Dragon Ball Z movie, Dragon Ball Z: Broly's Second Coming. I know, I'm a fucking loser, going to a stupid store so late on a school night for a damned 45 minute anime movie. But...hey...we got to do what it takes to be happy, right? Well, anime is my release, and the happiness I find. So...*sticks out tongue*..tough! This is Senji-ku/Ears, signing off, saying ja mata and catch ya on the flipside
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*hugs* I missed bothering you "Mr. Makato" ^_^
*hugs back* Now, come on, 'Doc Chicku', you know that you could never in a million years bother me. You can try all you like. But, I'm the bothering one that constantly bothers you, remember? Stubbornly hopeless ring a bell?

lol
Well, Tim.Senji-Ku/Ears (I do not know what to call you), I am glad that you are happy for your friends. It seems that you are a senior, and as a fellow senior, I can relate. Their joy and lack of care of time is in conflict with the way we want to hold on to time, and never let it fade...well, I pray that you come to peace with those relationships.
-Phoenix
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Heh...Senji or Tim is fine.

And I'm glad to know that I'm not just out there with my own unique set of worries. It makes me feel as though I'm crazy/totally alone. But knowing someone else feels the same as me makes me a little better. So, thanks, Phoenix ^^

Btw...from one senior to another, minusing the friends we'll miss, how does it feel knowing that we've got so little left then we're free?
wow love your diary entry.. youre a very interesting guy. And i also love dragon ball z stink thing is it dont come on t.v anymore=(
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